To my future adopted child,
Though I can’t yet see your face or know your name, I eagerly await the day we will finally meet. You occupy my thoughts, and I often feel a mixture of excitement and longing for your presence in my life.
What might you be experiencing right now? As I navigate my early 30s—building a life with your silly dad, advancing in my career, and enjoying mountain getaways—I can’t help but notice the growing void where you belong. Are you still just a dream waiting to come to life, or are you currently in a challenging situation, perhaps longing for a stable home? I wonder if you’re OK tonight.
You may not share my genetic makeup, which makes it hard to imagine what you’ll be like. You could be a tiny baby or a ten-year-old who has faced difficulties in various foster homes. You might have vibrant blue eyes, deep brown skin, fiery red hair, or even resemble me. Perhaps you are waiting for us in distant lands like China, Africa, or South America.
I want you to know: regardless of who you are or where you are, our paths have been destined to cross. My life has been an intricate preparation for you.
Over the past decade, I’ve devoted myself to teaching preschool, nurturing an open heart capable of embracing children when their own mothers cannot. Each time a little one cried from a scraped knee or sought refuge during a thunderstorm, I practiced maternal instincts. The joy I felt when former students returned to thank me for encouraging their creativity reminded me that I could love you wholeheartedly, even if you’ve had another mother before. I promise not to feel jealous—well, maybe just a little.
My heart is filled with excitement and creativity, yearning for a child to share the wonders of art and kindness. I’ve had the privilege of guiding little ones through their first steps, teaching them to count and read, and instilling in them the importance of kindness towards others.
Additionally, I have experience working with foster children—some were content, while others carried the weight of their pasts. The ones who were most challenging tugged at my heartstrings the most, as I understood their need for patience, guidance, and, at times, firmness.
Many well-meaning individuals have said to me, “You’ll be an amazing mother one day!” I wholeheartedly believe that. It adds a layer of depth to our connection, as you’ve experienced the pain of longing for parental love, while I’ve felt the ache of being childless. We both understand each other’s struggles, which is why our eventual joy will resonate so deeply. Every hardship, every skill we develop, will culminate beautifully when we finally meet.
When my former husband welcomed his first child into the world, I realized that it was a dream he’d always held. Though I couldn’t give him that experience, he reassured me, saying, “You will pass on what truly matters; your soul and your wisdom.” I cling to those words during the quiet nights when I yearn for you, my future son or daughter. I can’t help but worry about you. Is your life treating you well? What experiences are shaping you before our paths align? Will you get to know our beloved family dog, Bella? I hope you do; she would adore you.
Will you meet your great-grandmother? Your great-grandfather? They often wonder when you’ll arrive, and they would be overjoyed to see you.
Many individuals search for soulmate connections, but I believe I am destined for you—I am meant to be your mother. I eagerly anticipate the day our lives converge. Life is preparing us for this beautiful union, and I trust that the universe is guiding us towards one another.
For more insights on this journey, check out our post on life’s preparations. If you’re considering starting your family, reputable resources like Make a Mom offer excellent at-home insemination kits to help you along the way. Additionally, ASRM provides valuable information about pregnancy and home insemination.
In summary, the journey to parenthood is one of preparation, patience, and profound connection. As we await our fateful meeting, know that every moment of longing is a step closer to the love we will share.
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