It doesn’t matter who you are—how attractive, compassionate, or intelligent. He will convince you that a distorted form of love is genuine affection, and you may find yourself believing it.
Initially, he will seem like the perfect partner, unlike anyone you’ve encountered before. His attentiveness, care, and protectiveness will make you feel as if you’ve hit the jackpot. However, you are yet to realize the true cost of this fortune.
It begins with his lack of trust. You’ll try to demonstrate that you’re different from other women, that you can be good to him, that you possess a unique charm. But he will remain unconvinced. Having never faced such doubt, you’ll stay to prove him wrong, determined to show him the goodness within you.
He will share intimate moments with you and then disappear for weeks on end. He will shower you with compliments, only to flip and hurl insults. He’ll insist that his love for you surpasses that of your closest friends and family.
A profound emptiness will settle in your stomach, as if your heart has been crushed and the pain radiates outward. You’ll struggle to eat or find rest. He will simultaneously call you beautiful and derogatory names. He will declare you the love of his life, only to claim you’ve ruined everything. He’ll adore you one moment and express disgust the next.
Days will pass where he moves around you as though you’re invisible. Gradually, you may start to see yourself as a mere shadow of your former self. Perhaps you really aren’t good enough.
He will claim that no one loves you like he does, that no one loves you at all. No matter how hard you strive to be the best version of yourself, it will never suffice. The mantra will echo in your mind: you are not good enough.
He will refer to you as his beloved and then as his misery. He’ll say you are special, yet imply that being “special” is a flaw. In public, he will act as if he cherishes you; behind closed doors, he will reveal the truth of his disdain.
He is the ultimate deceiver—not a thief of material possessions, but a robber of your self-worth. He will assert that you are not the person your friends and family perceive you to be. In his eyes, only he knows the real you.
He is a chameleon, oscillating between kindness and cruelty, masking darkness with a charming exterior. He will instill chaos in your life and then make you feel responsible for it. If you stand up for yourself, he’ll turn it against you: “See, the problem lies with you, not me.” You will begin to doubt yourself, following his lead into suspicion and untrustworthiness.
He is portrayed as the nice guy, the generous soul, the office crush everyone wishes would find a decent partner.
His tears are mere performances, a ploy to ensnare the next victim in his web of deceit. He will draw you down as he struggles to keep himself afloat, blaming his failures on love—and ultimately, on you.
When you’ve reached your limit, when you’re tired of feeling like a ghost, and when you finally comprehend that he will never be the person he pretended to be, he will lock eyes with you, attempting to forge a deal. Resist the urge to accept it. Look away. Escape. Don’t linger to validate your worth; you have always been good enough.
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In summary, recognizing the signs of toxic love can prevent you from losing your sense of self. Remember, you are worthy, regardless of what anyone else may say.