The Ultimate Paradox of Motherhood

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This is Motherhood.

Last night, as I settled into my tub for a long-awaited moment of peace, I heard the unmistakable sounds of my little whirlwind (affectionately known as my 2-year-old). I had assumed he was peacefully asleep in his bed, but I quickly learned I was mistaken. First came the thundering footsteps down the stairs, followed by a high-pitched wail, and then a loud crash as my pint-sized tornado burst through the bathroom door. (Sure, it could be my vintage 1960s locks that seem to fail me, but it feels like he has the magical ability to melt them away—except, of course, when he locks me out, then suddenly they’re as secure as Fort Knox.) He leaped into the tub with me, sending my cup of tea flying and water splashing everywhere.

This, is Motherhood.

In an instant, I lifted him out of the steaming—some might say scalding—water. I wrestled with his wet clothes, trying to peel them off his squirming body. He stopped crying the moment he realized he might be joining me in the tub. I opened my mouth to express my frustration or to scold him, but then I caught a glimpse of his eyes. They dropped, and his little head hung low, as if waiting for my reprimand. I wish I could say that I gave in out of love, but truthfully, I surrendered because I couldn’t bear the thought of another tantrum.

This, is Motherhood.

Once he was down to his birthday suit, he began bouncing with excitement. I had to keep him from jumping in while I drained the scalding water and replaced it with a more toddler-friendly warm bath that felt too cool against my skin. I thought about escaping to bathe him on his own, but just as I started to stand, he wrapped his chubby arms around my neck. This time, my heartstrings tugged a bit, so I relented and settled back into the tub with my little buddy on my lap.

This, is Motherhood.

While washing his golden curls, I noticed how much they had grown. As I scrubbed his tiny feet, I realized they no longer fit in the palm of my hand. The last time we shared a bath, he was still small enough to cradle. Now, he’s nearly half my height! As his sleepy head rested against me, I remembered the molars that were likely responsible for our late-night bath adventure. The dentist had just told me, “The next time you go through this will be in about four years.” In just a few short years, those soothing baths with Mom will be a distant memory. How much will he grow in four years? Will we have cut his hair? What will he sound like? Who will he become?

This, is Motherhood.

At some point during our bath, my 9-year-old, who has a knack for photography just like his mom, snapped a picture of us. When I looked at it, I didn’t see my chaotic bathroom. Instead, I saw a haven where nighttime baths bring calm, a moment to pause and cherish time with my kids. I overlooked my messy, neglected appearance and saw a joyful soul whose body has accomplished incredible things, including nurturing three amazing little beings who are growing right before my eyes. This is the heart of motherhood.

Motherhood is messy and unpredictable. It’s about being both strict and flexible, sometimes for noble reasons, and other times just out of sheer tiredness. It’s a constant cycle of questioning whether you’re making the right choices and pondering what you could have done differently. Motherhood is balancing self-care while pouring every ounce of love into your children. It’s a paradox; you often wonder if you’re doing it right, but you learn to breathe through the challenges and savor the beautiful moments.

This, is Motherhood.

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In summary, motherhood embodies a beautiful blend of chaos and joy, where moments of frustration are often outweighed by love and connection.

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