Hey there, my little one,
I’ll be honest. Each morning as you leave for school, a part of me feels a pang of worry. Despite my efforts to equip you for success, there’s always that nagging fear. Life can be tough, and I know how unkind kids can be—sometimes even adults can be worse. I see you grappling with challenges, and I recognize that you often feel misunderstood.
But here’s the truth: I understand you.
As wild as it may sound, I sometimes wish I could rewind the clock and hold you as a baby for just one more day. Not because you haven’t exceeded my expectations—because you absolutely have. It’s because, back then, I had the power to shield you from the harsh realities of the world. I didn’t have to send you out into a place that can feel intimidating and unkind. When you were upset, I could simply wave a silly toy in front of you to bring a smile to your face. When fear crept in, I could scoop you up and whisper, “I’ve got you.”
If I could experience that just one more time, I’d hold you close, savoring every moment of safety and love. I wouldn’t mind if you cried; I would be there to discover what was bothering you. If you were tired, I’d rock you gently while you drifted off to sleep with your innocent little smile lighting up my heart. You wouldn’t seek the approval of anyone but me and your dad, and I’d cater to your every need.
But as I reflect on these thoughts, I realize how selfish they sound. Protecting you makes me feel better, but that doesn’t serve your growth. I understand that I must allow you to navigate life on your own terms. You need to face the anxiety of the lunchroom, learn independence, and tackle challenges head-on. Experiencing rejection and disappointment is part of life’s journey, and it will help you appreciate the joyful moments even more.
You might not fit the mold of what other kids like. Your unique style and individuality set you apart. While some may not grasp that, remember you’re stronger than you realize—sometimes even stronger than me. You inspire me daily. I have no doubt you will seize the world with confidence, and your uniqueness will shine brightly. Don’t ever feel like you need to conform to fit in. Just know that you are never alone. If it ever gets overwhelming, reach out to me—I’ll be there.
I can’t deny that I’ll always worry. It’s tough not being able to trail behind you with a safety net. I wish I could wrap you in bubble wrap to shield you from harm. But in challenging times, always remember you have a soft place to land. I’ll always be here for you, no matter what life throws your way—whether you’re a teenager who thinks I’m the worst or a grown-up living your own life. Just be yourself. You were never meant to be anyone else.
I understand you. And I’m incredibly grateful that you are my child.
Love,
Mom
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