I know I am not a lazy person, yet there are moments when my environment makes me question that belief. Allow me to elaborate.
Take a look at those picture frames. We moved into our house nearly five years ago, and I unpacked those cherished photos, placing them on the floor of my bedroom—just temporarily, I thought—awaiting that elusive moment to hang them on the walls. Fast forward to yesterday, and yes, those frames have been sitting there, gathering dust, for five years. Each time I glance at them, thoughts race through my mind: “I should hang them,” “I should donate them,” or “I should update those pictures.” Yet, I do nothing. I find myself immobilized by indecision.
My overflowing notebook is filled with mouthwatering recipes I’ve clipped from magazines, filled with the best intentions. However, I find myself serving the same few meals to my family week after week, month after month.
I’ve sorted through my clothes and packed them up for donation. They’ve been in the trunk of my car for two months now, a constant source of frustration every time I make a sudden turn and they tumble out.
My desk is cluttered with piles of papers, reminders of tasks that need my attention: transferring my wedding video to DVD before it deteriorates, contacting the insurance company about a medical claim, using that movie pass before it expires, shredding old bills to make space for the new ones, scheduling the orthodontist appointment, and buying that birthday gift.
I’m not unique in this struggle. This is simply the reality of motherhood. With a family of five, most days I only manage to accomplish the essentials: grocery shopping, feeding the kids, taking the dog to the vet, doing laundry, and paying bills.
As for all those “want-to” tasks? They linger, serving as constant reminders of my self-perceived shortcomings. I walk through my home, surrounded by those frames, recipes, and paperwork, and I feel like I’m not measuring up. I’m not “getting everything accomplished.”
But here’s the insight I’m starting to embrace: moms are not machines. We can’t keep going indefinitely without rest, or we risk breaking down. There’s no easy replacement if that happens.
While I may aspire to hang those pictures or shred those bills after tackling the day’s essentials, what I truly need is to curl up on the couch with my beloved dog and watch some Netflix.
Furthermore, I must change the narrative in my mind to recognize that this doesn’t equate to laziness; it’s simply a part of being human.
To all the mothers out there who collapse into bed each night, feeling as though they didn’t accomplish enough, remember this: You are the wheels that keep your family’s train moving. You are the engine that drives it and the conductor who guides it. You are extraordinary, and I believe that today, you did enough.
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In summary, it’s essential to recognize that while the “want-tos” may accumulate, they don’t define our worth. Embrace your humanity and understand that you are doing enough.