Updated: August 15, 2023
Originally Published: January 28, 2023
As I make my way downstairs and turn the corner, my four-year-old beams at me with a look that says, “You’re here.” It’s not quite excitement, but rather a confused amusement—like he’s just discovered all his hidden toys and can’t decide whether to be delighted or guilty. “Did she see what I was doing?” the look seems to ask. And with a subtle glance, I respond that yes, I saw, and I’m not particularly thrilled. He’s a little trickster, always trying to outsmart me. I hear the bathroom door creak; he’s at the sink, water running. He has this habit of getting one sleeve drenched, then coming out to whine about needing help because he “accidentally” got it wet. This time, I catch him in the act, and our eyes meet in the mirror. “You’re here,” we both seem to say, stifling a smile. That shared glance reassures me that sometimes, words aren’t necessary; a look can convey so much.
When I return home, I find my partner, Mark, holding a wailing baby while our four-year-old runs wild. He looks at me as if I’ve just unlocked a door he’s been standing in front of for ages. “You’re here,” his eyes communicate, filled with relief. Mark cherishes the evenings with our boys—wrestling, reading, and transforming bath time into rocket launches. The daytime is a different story, filled with endless responsibilities. When I’m away, he welcomes me back with open arms, claiming the boys miss their mom, but I know he’s the one counting the minutes until my return. Our family has its rhythm, and because Mark is often working, he doesn’t always grasp the little secrets that keep our household running smoothly. Those silent exchanges assure me that appreciation transcends words—just a look can express it all.
Every day, we study each other, trying to decipher the emotions behind our expressions. Much like the moon, our interactions evolve through various phases, each uniquely beautiful. I’m captivated by how we communicate our feelings as we navigate life together as a family. It begins with an undeniable connection, where we are the center of each other’s worlds, as essential as the air we breathe. It’s a powerful and indescribable bond. As time passes, we test those connections, sometimes even pushing each other away, seeking reassurance of unbounded love.
I can’t help but wonder how my boys’ expressions will change as they enter their teenage years. I anticipate a shift where their eyes will say something like, “Oh great, you’re back! Can I get a ride?” They might even relish the days I’m not around, enjoying the freedom for their own mischief. But that’s perfectly fine; while it may sting, I don’t want to be the mother of little boys forever. My goal is to raise responsible men and cherish the time I will eventually have without them at home. I’ll look forward to our reunions, where our eyes meet, and I can silently say, “You’re here. Thank goodness you’re here.” In those moments, I know I’ve truly loved, and a single glance can convey what could take a lifetime to articulate—that they mean everything to me.
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In summary, the power of unspoken communication within a family is profound. Through shared glances and silent connections, we navigate the ups and downs of parenthood, cherishing every phase of our journey together.
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