Dear Ex-Husband,
Yesterday, as I spotted you in the driveway during our usual pickup time, it struck me that it’s been nearly two years since I last saw you without clothes. I’m sure my expression revealed the relief I felt at this realization, and I apologize for saying I was preoccupied with the dog. Truthfully, I was just a little too focused on your… well, you know.
I’m trying to be more honest these days, which is something we both struggled with during our marriage. So, in the spirit of transparency, there are a few things I need to share.
Apologies and Regrets
First and foremost, I want to say I’m sorry. I regret that we made grand promises of “forever” without truly understanding what that meant. If there’s blame to be assigned, it’s to our youthful ignorance. We were still figuring ourselves out when we exchanged vows and had no clue that we would eventually drift apart.
Expressions of Gratitude
But I also want to express my gratitude. Thank you for the ring, for sharing your last name, and for teaching me resilience and patience. Those little ones who resemble you in so many ways? They are the greatest treasures of my life.
Thank you for fighting for me, and for having the courage to let me go when I realized I needed to.
Lingering Questions
While our Divorce Agreement has the practicalities of visitation and expenses covered, there are still unspoken questions lingering between us. Every time I see you, I can’t help but wonder about the things that feel too awkward to address.
Some of these thoughts take us back to happier moments—the soft memories of us waking up next to each other, laughter echoing through the house. Do you remember those early nights with our daughter, marveling at her tiny hands and nails that we created together?
When our wedding song plays on your playlist, do you rush to skip it, or do you take a moment to reminisce about that weekend at the beach when my hair fell in my face? Or maybe you’ve deleted it entirely, fearing it might take you back to a chapter you’ve closed for good.
Curiosity About Your Present
I also find myself curious about your present life. Are you in love with someone new? Is she good in bed? Does she do those things I once turned down? Does being with her make you question the love we had, or did you even know what love meant back then?
Navigating Our New Reality
As we navigate our new reality, I wonder when it’s appropriate to hug you. Is it okay at band concerts, when our daughter scores a goal, or at graduations? What about during sad moments, like a funeral—should I offer a comforting touch or simply give a nod and walk away?
Everything has shifted, and I understand that’s the way it has to be. We’re no longer Facebook friends, and our conversations are reduced to text shorthand—like teenagers who’ve forgotten how to write a heartfelt note.
Moving Forward
Lastly, I want to let you know that I’m not angry anymore. I’ve sought therapy, read self-help books, and learned how to tie up my feelings and release them like a balloon into the sky. But I see the anger still etched on your face when our paths cross.
So, I’ll leave you with this question: Do you think you’ll forgive me anytime soon?
With warm regards,
Your Ex-Wife