In a cozy art studio, I joined my sister-in-law, Jenna, and mother-in-law, Linda, for one of those paint nights where everyone tries to replicate the same artwork under the guidance of an instructor. Picture this: a room filled with women, wine flowing, and everyone earnestly attempting to mimic each brushstroke to perfection.
As I glanced around, I noticed how beautifully Jenna and Linda’s paintings were coming together. They were patient, precise, and undoubtedly talented. But then, a rebellious spirit took hold of me. I found myself questioning whether I had the guts to defy the rules—to splatter my paint and create my own interpretation of a tree. For a lifetime rule-follower, this was a monumental challenge.
With a few strokes of my brush, I transformed my palette into an unexpected deep black. Oh no, I thought, feeling the instructor’s disapproving gaze upon me. But once the initial shock of my artistic rebellion passed, I began to unwind. No one was throwing me out, after all. I embraced this newfound freedom and painted a dark sky, complete with stars, a sun, and a bare tree, accompanied by the phrase: “Be you.”
Looking back at that painting now feels prophetic. Is it odd to think that? Maybe. But I can’t shake the feeling that the bare tree represents me post-chemo—stripped of my leaves, vulnerable against a dark sky. And that sun, inexplicably painted in the night, symbolizes hope and light. Life has a peculiar way of making sense and nonsense coalesce.
As October rolls in, I find myself carrying a light, breezy sadness—not the weighty kind, but a gentle reminder of change. The trees are releasing their leaves, dancing softly to the ground, and this season now forever intertwines with my experience of cancer. With October being Breast Cancer Awareness Month, I see pink ribbons everywhere, even on my cereal box.
This painting serves as a reminder that life can shift in an instant. We never know when a moment will redefine our journey. So, muster up your bravery. Break the rules when you feel compelled. Listen to that inner voice urging you to blur the lines. Be true to yourself. And don’t forget to prioritize your health with those monthly self-checks and mammograms. For more on this, check out this informative resource on pregnancy and home insemination.
In summary, the experience of creating art after battling breast cancer taught me about the importance of courage, authenticity, and embracing change. Life is unpredictable, so it’s essential to be brave and take risks when the moment calls for it.