My sister-in-law and a dear friend joined me for a fun paint night at a charming art studio. These events are led by an instructor who guides everyone through the process of creating the same painting. Typically, they attract mostly women who come together with friends, family, or coworkers, sipping wine while trying to replicate the instructor’s artistic strokes.
As I glanced around the room, I noticed everyone meticulously following each step, their brushes moving with care. My sister-in-law and friend were creating beautiful pieces, showcasing their patience, precision, and innate talent.
Then, a wave of inspiration hit me. I suddenly questioned whether I had the courage to break free from the rules—to smear my paint, start anew, and create my own interpretation of a tree. As someone who usually follows the rules, this felt daunting. With a few bold strokes, I mixed colors, resulting in a deep shade of black. Uh-oh. I caught the instructor’s disapproving glance.
However, once I overcame the initial shock of my rebellious choice, I began to feel more at ease. No one was going to kick me out for expressing myself. So, I embraced this newfound freedom and painted a dark sky—complete with stars and a sun—above a bare tree. I added two simple words: Be You.
Looking back at that painting, it feels almost prophetic. Is it odd to think that? Maybe. But I can’t shake the feeling that tree symbolizes me—bare and vulnerable after chemotherapy, stripped of what once was. The sun, oddly placed in a dark sky, represents hope and the promise of brighter days ahead. It’s a paradox that perfectly encapsulates life’s unpredictability.
As October unfolds, I feel a subtle heaviness in my heart. It’s not overwhelming sadness—more of a gentle reminder. I watch the trees gracefully shedding their leaves, a beautiful dance that now forever links this season to my cancer journey. October is also Breast Cancer Awareness Month, a time filled with pink reminders everywhere, even on my cereal box.
Yet, that painting serves as a reminder that life always has a “before.” We never know when things might change. So, dare to be brave. Break the rules when you can. Listen to that inner voice urging you to blur the lines. Be you. And don’t forget to perform your monthly self-checks and schedule those mammograms.
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In summary, embracing creativity and courage can lead to personal revelations and remind us of the importance of self-expression. As we navigate life’s uncertainties, let’s not forget to appreciate our unique journeys.