Once upon a time, my partner Alex delighted in the origin of my blog’s name. “I’m the one who thought of it, so without me, there would be no blog!” he would boast to his siblings. It was true, in a way. The name emerged during a phase when he was just two years old, overwhelmed by fears of everything around him. The moment he uttered “Mommy Guilt,” I knew I had a name that would capture the essence of my journey, and the rest is history.
However, lately, Alex’s perspective on my blogging endeavors has shifted. While his siblings bask in the spotlight, he prefers to keep his distance. He often feels emotional when I’m away at night, and just last week, as I prepared for a short trip, his eyes filled with tears. “I wish I hadn’t come up with that name,” he said softly. “If I hadn’t, you wouldn’t have to go.” Ouch. Talk about a gut punch.
The past few weeks have been exhilarating—think book launches, swanky hotels, talk shows, and even hitting the New York Times list! I’m still pinching myself over all the excitement. Yet, amidst all this, I can’t shake the feeling that my true place is at home in my comfy yoga pants, surrounded by the kids who inspired my journey in the first place.
During my readings, I always wrap up with a Q&A session, and the most frequent question I get is about maintaining balance. People seem curious about my secret. Honestly, it makes me chuckle. Balance? That’s the last thing I’ve found. I often feel restless when I’m not busy, yet when I am engaged in activities, it seems like my family pays the price. I crave to savor each moment of this thrilling ride, but the reality is that it rarely works out that way.
As I write this, I’m en route to a few days in New York, missing out on Alex’s birthday and skipping baseball games and school performances. Sure, there’s a luxurious king-sized bed waiting for me, but the price is steep. I struggle to sleep when I can’t hear my kids’ soft breaths at night.
This Mother’s Day marks the first time in years that I don’t want a day off. It turns out that having too little time with my kids can be just as challenging as having too much.
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In summary, navigating the complexities of motherhood while pursuing personal passions can lead to feelings of guilt and longing for balance. This Mother’s Day, I choose to embrace the joy of being present with my family.
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