The other day, while browsing the clearance section at a popular store, I overheard two teenage girls chatting in the fitting room next to me. Their laughter quickly turned into a conversation that sent chills down my spine. One girl lamented, “I’d look so much better if I was as skinny as you. You suck. I won’t eat tonight.” Her friend didn’t even flinch. It was as if discussing starvation to fit into clothes was completely normal for them. My heart felt heavy—I recognized that voice all too well.
In my own teenage years, I often stood in front of a mirror, wishing desperately to shed my perceived flaws. I longed to be as “skinny” as my friends or the popular girls on TV. This fixation on being thin spiraled into a battle with disordered eating, robbing me of precious moments meant for exploring life and forming connections. I was trapped in a cycle of self-hatred, projecting my insecurities onto others and allowing my obsessions to dictate my self-worth.
As I stood there, engulfed in my thoughts and emotions, I felt a surge of sadness wash over me. I wanted to intervene, to share the wisdom I wished someone had offered me back then. I wanted to tell that girl that being skinny doesn’t define your worth or your potential. It doesn’t guarantee friendships or happiness—the number on the scale is just that: a number. I envisioned storming into that dressing room, telling her all the beautiful qualities she possessed that had nothing to do with her size.
But I hesitated. Instead, I left feeling regretful, wishing I could have reached out to her. I thought about my own daughter, and how I might inadvertently pass on my old habits. Just recently, I caught my two-year-old mimicking my behavior with the scale—stepping on and off, unaware of the implications. It hit me hard; I was setting her up for a lifetime of self-doubt.
In that moment, I realized I had to break this cycle of self-hatred for her sake. I vowed to demonstrate what it truly means to love oneself. Yes, some days may feel like I’m faking it, but I refuse to let my daughter grow up thinking her value is tied to fitting into a specific size. When I got home, I hugged her tightly, reminding myself that she is my priority. We played in front of the mirror, had a tea party, and celebrated our reflection. She looked at me and said, “Mommy pretty like Meme. Pretty, happy Mommy.” That’s the image I want her to hold onto.
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Together, let’s rewrite the narrative for our daughters. They deserve to grow up knowing their worth is not defined by their size but by their character, kindness, and all the beautiful things that make them unique.
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