As a proud mom of two wonderful kids—a spirited girl and a charming boy—I can confidently say that they are the sunshine in my life. Despite the chaos that comes with toddler meltdowns, sticky fingers, and the occasional car sickness incident, I wouldn’t trade my role as their mother for anything, not even for a day with Ryan Gosling and a mountain of cash (though it would be a close call).
When my partner, Jake, and I first envisioned our family, we agreed on two kids. This decision was shaped by various factors: we believed two would prevent sibling alliances against us, ensure one-on-one attention, and keep our family dynamic simple. Plus, our own upbringings in two-child households influenced this choice. And let’s be real—two kids fit perfectly in a standard car, which means no minivan for me. I’m desperately clinging to my last shreds of coolness.
After the arrival of our daughter and, two years later, our son, I began to feel a tugging desire for a third child. One night, I broached the subject with Jake, anticipating a debate over our original plan. To my surprise, he shared the same sentiments.
I always thought I would just know when our family was complete, like many parents seem to express with their exhausted but certain declarations of being done. But I’m not feeling that clarity. What if we stop at two? It’s likely I might regret not having another child, but I can’t imagine regretting having one. I’ve never heard a mother lament, “I wish we hadn’t had little Billy; he’s such a handful.”
So, we often discuss the idea of a third child on calm days and laugh it off when the kids are bouncing off the walls. We’ve even gone as far as choosing baby names on an adventurous date night. Yet, with each passing day, the clock ticks louder in my mind. The allure of expanding our family is immense, but here are the top five reasons holding me back:
1. Health Risks
With the rise of the Zika virus, a disease transmitted by mosquitoes that can lead to serious birth defects like microcephaly, the stakes feel higher than ever. While I know there are precautions to take, I can’t help but imagine myself wrapped in bubble wrap, flanked by mosquito nets—pure paranoia!
2. Political Climate
Regardless of your political views, we can agree that the current political landscape is unsettling. Raising a newborn amidst such uncertainty feels daunting; I’ve often joked about relocating to a peaceful island if things go awry.
3. Anxiety of the First Year
The first year with a newborn is a whirlwind of worry. From tracking their weight to wondering if their cough is normal, it’s an emotional rollercoaster. Every milestone brings a new wave of stress. I’m sure Jake would attest to my frantic nature during this stage.
4. Maternity Leave Challenges
As a working mom, the thought of navigating maternity leave is overwhelming. I need to hoard my leave days like they’re gold, and even then, it may not be enough for prenatal visits and the essential 12 weeks post-birth. Who wants to deal with a newborn and financial strain at the same time?
5. Childcare Concerns
I’m lucky to have an exceptional childcare provider, but nobody can care for my child like I do. After countless hours of bonding, I know my baby’s quirks inside and out. Transitioning back to work after maternity leave feels like a heart-wrenching breakup for both of us.
These are my reasons, however irrational they may seem. Perhaps therapy could help tackle my anxiety, but as for the Zika threat—no thank you! (Is there a mosquito-free zone in Alaska? I might need to check.)
Whether our family is complete remains uncertain, and that’s okay. I believe this journey of deciding to have another child will unfold in time. Meanwhile, I’ll be enjoying the little moments, like watching cartoons and playing dress-up, because those are the best parts of being a parent.
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In summary, the decision to expand our family is filled with complexities and uncertainties. For now, I’ll embrace the chaos of parenting my two kids and let the future unfold as it may.
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