As a special needs mom, I often find myself saying the words, “We’re fine,” to family, friends, neighbors, and colleagues. With a son facing significant medical challenges, a demanding career, and a preschooler to care for, I frequently get asked, “How are you managing everything?” My instinctive reply is almost always, “We’re fine!” or “I’m doing good!” It’s become my go-to response, even though I chuckle to myself internally.
But if I’m being honest, I haven’t truly felt “fine” in quite some time. How could I? How can I genuinely say I’m fine when my child might need “routine” brain surgery at a moment’s notice? For any parent who’s had to face their little one undergoing any surgery, the term “routine” does little to ease the panic of worst-case scenarios that flood the mind.
How can I claim to be fine when my toddler has endured multiple surgeries, countless procedures, and spent a significant portion of his life in hospital beds? The uncertainty of when we might find ourselves back in that environment, where I pray in rhythm with the ventilator, oscillating between fear and hope, weighs heavily on my heart.
Yet, amidst the chaos and heartache, there is a paradox: in many ways, I am fine. Despite the constant worry, fatigue, and endless “what-ifs” that come with raising a child with special needs, our lives overflow with love and laughter. Each day offers moments of joy that remind us of the beauty of life. We celebrate every milestone with unrestrained enthusiasm, and those tiny arms wrapping around my neck are what matter most in those fleeting moments.
So, what do I want you to take away from this? It’s impossible for me to claim that everything is perfectly fine, and yet somehow, I find a way to be okay.
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In summary, while a special needs mom might often say she’s “fine,” the reality is much more complex. There’s a blend of challenges and profound joy that shapes our experiences every day.
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