In the world of parenting, there’s a common phrase that we often hear: “I don’t care if it’s a boy or a girl.” Many say it, some truly believe it, and others might even convince themselves of it. For some expectant parents, this sentiment is genuine. They embrace the arrival of a son, daughter, or both with open arms. However, for others, this nonchalant attitude about gender can feel disingenuous.
Before I found out I was expecting, I told myself I wouldn’t mind whether I had a boy or a girl. I understood that the most important thing was to have a healthy baby, so as the 20-week ultrasound approached, I repeated that mantra. Yet, deep down, I secretly hoped for a daughter.
When the news hit that my little one was a boy, I experienced a whirlwind of feelings. I was undoubtedly relieved about his health and excited about the journey of motherhood ahead. But amidst that joy, there was an undeniable sense of discomfort.
As we walked out of the doctor’s office, my partner couldn’t contain his elation, celebrating our news with a little dance. He was over the moon about having a son! Yet, as I watched him, I couldn’t help but feel a tinge of disappointment. Why wasn’t I sharing in that joy?
Let’s clarify: I was grateful for my pregnancy and relieved my baby was healthy. That goes without saying. I recognized that gender identity is a personal and fluid matter. I would love my son deeply, just as I would have loved a daughter. But what I didn’t realize at the time—and what often goes unspoken—is that feeling gender disappointment is completely normal. It’s okay to have a preference for one gender over the other; it doesn’t make you a bad person. It simply makes you human.
I know many women who felt upset upon learning they were having a boy. I’ve heard dads express concern over raising a daughter, and mothers who dread the complexities of parenting a girl due to their own experiences. Similarly, some fathers feel relieved to have a daughter, while others have their own reasons for wanting a son.
Do these feelings always make sense? Not at all. But emotions don’t always operate on logic. Experiencing gender disappointment doesn’t equate to a lack of love for your child. Love is unconditional, even when feelings can be confusing.
Every parent carries their unique expectations and fears into this journey from the moment they see two lines on a pregnancy test. These emotions stem from our upbringing, societal norms, and personal experiences. It’s a heavy burden to bear, and often, it feels quite nonsensical.
Personally, I held onto the hope of having a daughter—not just for the typical “girl things” like tea parties and twirly dresses, but for the deeper connection I imagined we might share. I yearned for someone to guide through adolescence and celebrate the joys and hurdles of womanhood with, as well as potentially bond with over motherhood.
At the same time, I faced fears about connecting with my son. I worried about what society might expect from him, and the possibility that I might not bond with him as easily as I would with a daughter. Did any of this make sense? Nope. Was it rational? Certainly not. But was it a normal reaction? Absolutely.
Eventually, I adapted to the idea of raising a son. Now, I embrace my role as a mother to two incredible boys. They fill my life with joy, and I’m learning that there isn’t just one way to parent effectively. Each child brings their own unique experiences, and there are countless ways to love them, regardless of gender.
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To sum up, it’s perfectly natural to have preferences when it comes to the gender of your child. Emotions surrounding these preferences can be complex and often don’t follow a logical path. What truly matters is the love and connection you build with your child, regardless of gender.
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