Lifestyle
By Jamie Lee
Updated: Dec. 10, 2019
Originally Published: Dec. 10, 2019
Let’s get straight to the point. I need to share something that I’ve kept hidden for over two decades—a secret that has been weighing heavily on my heart. Here goes: My name is Jamie Lee, and I identify as bisexual.
That felt liberating! Yes, I, Jamie Lee, am attracted to both men and women. To be completely transparent, I also have an appreciation for individuals beyond gender. From my early teenage years, I’ve embraced the belief that love knows no boundaries when it comes to gender. Bisexuality is the label that encapsulates my experiences and feelings.
This marks the first time I am openly discussing my bisexuality, so consider this my official coming out. Congratulations! You now form part of my immediate support network, and I genuinely appreciate you being here as I share my journey.
My Journey of Self-Discovery
My attraction to girls began back in middle school; however, it wasn’t until a dare with a close friend in high school that I recognized it for what it was. At about 16, I kissed one of the most popular girls in school, and it was an unforgettable experience. Her soft, inviting lips made me want to keep kissing her. I awkwardly pulled away, trying to downplay the magic of that moment.
I wish I could say that this memory remains untouched, but an unkind classmate revealed our secret kiss the next day in English class, causing a wave of gossip to sweep through my peers. I felt humiliated as laughter echoed around me, and tears streamed down my face as I ran out of the room. My teacher made the boy apologize, but the damage was done.
My little brother soon noticed my style changes and teased me about looking like a stereotypical lesbian, which prompted me to alter my wardrobe yet again. At night, I felt safest expressing my true self. I would stay up late, watching films featuring same-sex relationships, like If These Walls Could Talk Too and But I’m a Cheerleader. Angelina Jolie captivated me, and I plastered her pictures on my bedroom walls, which my mom mistakenly thought was purely inspirational.
College and Complications
I envisioned college as a time to explore my sexuality, hoping to venture into gay clubs with a close friend. While I was also attracted to men, it felt easier to pursue them due to societal expectations. Yet, just three months into my freshman year, fate led me to fall in love with who would become my first husband. Suddenly, my life became complicated. Although I was in a serious relationship with a college guy, I found myself drunkenly kissing various women, which baffled my boyfriend. Surprisingly, he eventually joined in on these escapades, even if he didn’t fully grasp my motivations.
Unfortunately, my quest for authenticity came at a cost. One summer, I transformed my appearance, gaining confidence and weight after years of struggling with my body image. I was ready to tell my siblings about my bisexuality, but when I started to share this in our kitchen, my mom barged in, unleashing hurtful comments about my identity and appearance. It led to a heated argument, and that day marked my departure from my childhood home.
New Beginnings
I married my college sweetheart, but the marriage ended four years later. Heartbreak is a tough pill to swallow, yet it also opened doors for new beginnings. I finally had the chance to explore dating women again, but fear held me back when it came to meeting potential partners in person.
Eventually, I met my current husband, Alex, and we have two wonderful children together, along with his teenage daughter. I initially thought I would need to suppress my bisexuality around him, given my past experiences. However, when a younger family member began exploring their sexual identity, I knew it was time to be honest with Alex and myself.
After many deep conversations, I found that Alex was accepting of my bisexuality and even shared in my crushes on celebrities like Lizzo and Scarlett Johansson.
Embracing My True Self
I am Jamie Lee, and I am an out and proud bisexual woman. If you’re reading this and haven’t yet embraced your true self, know that I understand how challenging it can be to accept who you are. It’s tough to let others see your authentic self, especially when society promotes a different narrative. After overcoming significant mental health challenges, I’ve made the conscious decision to stop hiding and live freely.
I am ready to be my true self— and that self is absolutely amazing.
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