The other day, I found myself wearing the most inappropriate shoes for a visit to the park. I chose my trendy canvas sneakers, which my colleague Sam teasingly referred to as my “playground shoes.” They offer no arch support, but I adore their aesthetic. They project youthfulness, simplicity, and a carefree spirit. They embody the kind of life I aspire to lead.
However, today, I’m regretting that choice. My shins are aching so much that I resorted to three extra-strength pain relievers. That’s a dose too many.
But oh, what a blast we had! We dashed back and forth between the toddler area and the bigger kid section, where my child is discovering her own balance between ages. In those sneakers, I kept pace with her as she tackled the rock wall, crossed the swaying bridge, and slid down the “big beautiful tunnel,” as she affectionately names it. Those shoes made me feel like the adventurous version of myself—the mother I always imagined I would be.
With those sneakers, I felt compelled to move faster, as if they transformed me into someone who could keep up with the youthful energy of my daughter and her friends. I think of how my inner child would definitely sport a pair like those.
Now, I’m considering a change in my hairstyle. The phrase echoing in my mind is, “I love this look, but I’m too old for it.” Whether it’s pastel pink, a vibrant lavender, or bold dark auburn streaks, I find myself overthinking every option and doubting my right to express myself as I wish. What starts as a simple search for hairstyle inspiration spirals into a full-blown identity crisis.
I want to be brave and embrace my individuality, even if it means sporting brightly colored hair or funky glasses. I refuse to let age dictate my choices. Just like how I enjoyed a day at the park in those sneakers, I want to dive into my passions—whether that’s motherhood or my dream of being a writer.
I’m authoring my own narrative, one that includes wearing whatever shoes I choose, despite the inevitable aches that follow. Soon enough, I’ll experiment with my hair color, and I won’t second-guess what brings me joy. I’m ready to welcome those changes.
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In summary, my journey is about embracing who I am and making choices that align with my happiness, whether that’s through fashion statements or parenting adventures.