This morning was a tipping point for me. After ensuring the kids were dressed, fed, and ready for school, I turned on the TV, adhering to my strict rule on acceptable channels. With the vast amount of inappropriate content available, it’s crucial for me to control what my children watch. My daughter, Lily, however, has a knack for bending the rules. The moment I stepped out of the room, she was already flipping through channels in search of the latest teen drama.
It took mere seconds. I had just chosen a program on PBS Kids, primarily for little Finn, when I heard the unmistakable sound of the remote in her hands. “Lily, please, don’t change the channel!” I called out, but my request fell on deaf ears. A few minutes later, I caught her in the act again, and that was it—I snapped.
I found myself yelling, “I’VE TOLD YOU A THOUSAND TIMES TO LEAVE THE TV ALONE!” A flurry of frustration erupted from me. As I ordered her to her room, she stood frozen, refusing to budge. In a fit of rage, I chased her, only for her to lock the door just in time. “I can’t believe you locked the door!” I shouted. My husband, Mark, attempted to calm me down, but all I could think was how unappreciated I felt.
Sure, it seems absurd: all this chaos over a channel switch. But it’s not just that. It was Lily’s defiance, Finn’s breakfast tantrum, and Joey’s dramatic meltdown over social media restrictions. It’s the relentless bickering, the constant demands, and the lack of cooperation. Asking them to help around the house feels like a monumental task. I often feel like a single parent, with Mark away more often than not.
I know I shouldn’t have lost my temper. I feel embarrassed by my outburst. I remind myself that children are just being kids; their actions aren’t personal. Still, some days, motherhood feels like an uphill battle—a big, fat “Forget you!” This is why many say motherhood is one of the toughest jobs. It’s not necessarily the physical or intellectual demands; it’s the emotional weight that can be overwhelming. The sacrifices seem to go unnoticed, and all I really want is some respect for the rules—rules that are not unreasonable.
It’s uncomfortable to voice these feelings. Society often paints a rosy picture of motherhood, highlighting its joys while glossing over the hardships. I guess I’m sharing this because I want to connect with others who might feel the same way.
After dropping the kids off at school, I discovered Lily had forgotten her lunch at home. Guess who had to load up Finn and make a second trip? That’s right—this is what mothers do.
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Summary:
Motherhood can be an emotionally taxing experience filled with moments of frustration and exhaustion. While the demands may seem simple, the emotional toll can feel overwhelming, especially when feeling unappreciated. Sharing these struggles can help connect with others who face the same challenges.