To my future adopted child,
Though I don’t yet know your name or if you’ve come into this world, my heart is eager to embrace you. I often find myself lost in daydreams about you, and there are moments when tears fill my eyes because you’re not yet in my arms.
What is your life like at this moment? I have been spending my early 30s building a life filled with love—marrying your wonderful father, advancing in my career, and enjoying mountain getaways. Yet, I can feel a growing void where you should be. Are you just a dream waiting to be realized, or are you navigating challenges in a difficult situation right now? Are you safe tonight?
You won’t share my DNA, which makes it hard to picture what you might be like. You could be an infant or perhaps you’re an older child, carrying the weight of past experiences. You might have blue eyes, brown skin, or red hair—or you may resemble me in ways I can’t yet imagine. You could be anywhere, waiting for the moment our paths will finally cross.
I want you to know that no matter your background, our destinies are intertwined. Life has been shaping me for you. My decade of experience as a preschool teacher has opened my heart to love and care for children, even when they’ve faced hardships. Each time a child cried or sought comfort during a storm, I practiced the art of motherhood. When former students returned to share their triumphs, it reaffirmed my ability to nurture and support.
I have a heart bursting with enthusiasm, ready to share the wonders of art, kindness, and imagination with you. I’ve spent years teaching little ones how to walk, count, read, and be empathetic. I have also worked with foster children—some who found joy, while others struggled with deep-seated pain. The most challenging ones have taught me the value of patience and understanding, and my love for them was often the strongest.
People often say to me, “You’ll be a wonderful mother one day!” I believe that’s true, and it feels a bit unfair that you and I have had to endure our own struggles. But in our shared experiences, we will find a deep appreciation for the joy we will create together. Every hardship I faced and every lesson learned will become meaningful when we finally meet.
When my former spouse welcomed his first child, I recognized his dream had materialized. It was a dream I couldn’t fulfill for him, and he comforted me by saying, “You may not pass on your genes, but you will pass on your soul and your mind.” Those words ring in my heart as I think of you, my future child. I worry about your well-being and wonder what life has in store for you before we unite. Will our beloved family pet, Bella, be there to greet you? She’s a sweetheart who will adore you, and I hope you get to know her.
Will you have the chance to meet your great-grandparents? They are always eager to welcome you into their arms. While many women search for their soulmates, I believe I am destined to be your mother. I look forward to the day when we come together, for life is preparing us for this beautiful reunion.