Do you remember what it was like to be little and want to grow up fast? As a child, I craved the days when I’d be older and more independent. In elementary school, I dreamed of middle school, and by the time I reached middle school, I was eager for high school. Each year brought new wishes: a cell phone, a driver’s license, the chance to make mistakes without repercussions. Fast forward to senior year, and I was yearning for college and the freedom that came with it. I moved to a new city, enrolled in classes, and even got a job in the bustling world of animal care. Did my wishing ever cease? Absolutely not.
After college, I found myself in a loving relationship and soon longed for a family of my own. When my son, Leo, entered my life, I was overwhelmed with joy—but also a sense of urgency to hit the pause button on time. At just shy of four years old, Leo often utters, “When I get big and strong…” This phrase reflects the common cultural narrative that emphasizes growth and strength. “Eat your dinner to become big and strong,” we tell our children. “Play outside, it’ll help you grow!” It’s a mantra that pushes children to look ahead, dreaming of a time when they are no longer small.
While I understand this sentiment, I’ve noticed how much Leo admires his father, who towers at 6-foot-4 and embodies strength. He sees his dad mowing the lawn or building things and yearns to emulate him. Leo loves to assist me in the kitchen, but he feels like he’s not “big enough” to crack eggs yet. Just the other day, he looked up and said, “Mommy, I can’t wait to be as tall as Daddy!” My husband, Mark, gently reassured him, “It’s okay to be little right now, buddy.” But Leo didn’t quite agree.
This longing for growth is something many of us still experience. Approaching 30, I often find myself wishing to turn back time, longing for the smooth skin of my twenties or the carefree days of youth. If I could bottle up these precious years of childhood and keep them forever, I would. But perhaps it’s time to stop wishing and focus on embracing the present moment.
Leo, you are already big and strong in so many ways. You are perfect just the way you are. Life is beautiful right now, and you’re transitioning from toddlerhood to boyhood. Embrace who you are; the baby I wished for and the boy I will always love.
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In summary, the desire to grow up is a natural part of childhood, but it’s essential to appreciate and celebrate every stage of life. Our children, like Leo, are already big and strong in their own right.