Dear Little One,
Though your due date is still two weeks away, my latest appointment has left me astonished; it seems you might make your entrance sooner than we expected. The realization hit me hard while I was on the examination table, particularly as I became acutely aware of the progress my body has made in preparation for your arrival. Months of unacknowledged anticipation have culminated in this moment — you are on your way.
Caught off guard by how rapidly time has flown, I’ve found myself in a whirlwind since that appointment, scrambling to finish laundry, sanitize every surface, and keep the kitchen free from the usual mess of crumbs and spills. All this in hopes that when labor strikes, our home won’t be a chaotic disaster for visitors.
Honestly, I don’t feel as prepared as I hoped to be. This feeling is partly due to the delightful chaos your siblings create, which often counters my cleaning efforts. I find myself feeling drained and anxious, allowing these emotions to overshadow my excitement and gratitude for the journey ahead.
So here are my commitments to you, our family, and myself at this poignant moment. As I count down the days until your arrival, I promise to relish every moment of this pregnancy:
- I will set aside the endless chores and meal prep and instead sit among the scattered toys and crumbs, fully engaging with your siblings. We will fill these last days with joy and creativity, allowing ourselves to forget, if only for a little while, that soon I will be dividing my attention with a third child. We will dream up names for you (your sister is fond of Mr. Jellybean, so here’s hoping you make it through school ok) and enjoy the sensation of you moving within me as we play and imagine together.
- I will allow myself to shed tears as I tuck them into bed each night, mourning the changes that your arrival will bring. Yet, I will also envision the laughter you will all share — the playful moments that may come at the expense of our living room decor! I’ll picture you two holding hands on your first day of school, shedding tears when you part for college, and standing together on your wedding days. I can almost see the cheeky glances as you realize you can team up against me.
- I will shift my focus away from the discomfort and fears surrounding labor. Instead, I will close my eyes and truly embrace the experience of carrying you — to feel your tiny life thriving within me. I’ll ponder your appearance and wonder about your dreams, knowing that no one else feels you in the same way I do. This profound connection will soon transform; soon, instead of your kicks, I’ll feel your warm hugs, your little hand slipping into mine for comfort, and your gentle curls in my fingers as you drift off to sleep.
- Finally, I will cherish the unique moments that come with this pregnancy, as there aren’t many points in a woman’s life when this experience is regarded with such admiration and awe. The seasons of our hearts and home are shifting as we prepare for your arrival. While the urgency of tasks looms large, I’ve realized the extraordinary intimacy of our time together. Though I may not appreciate every second (remember the time I spilled juice everywhere?), I feel fortunate to have this wakeup call, encouraging me to hold my other little ones a little tighter and to be more present. It’s a privilege to carry you, and I look forward to gazing into your eyes and sharing the love I already have for you.
With all my love,
Mom
For more insights on pregnancy and home insemination, check out this excellent resource. If you’re interested in boosting fertility, here’s a great option to consider. And to explore more about our journey, visit this link.
Summary
This heartfelt letter from a mother-to-be reflects on the bittersweet experience of nearing the end of pregnancy. It captures her feelings of anxiety and anticipation while making promises to savor these final moments with her children and prepare for the arrival of her new baby. She emphasizes the importance of cherishing these unique experiences and the profound bond developing between her and her unborn child.