If only I could establish a routine and adhere to it. If I could consistently wake up on time. If I could prioritize sleep and ensure I get enough rest. If I could organize my day effectively, I would be able to sleep when needed and focus on work during the day. Sounds simple, right?
If I could just make healthier food choices, I wouldn’t feel bloated or fatigued. If I had nutritious meals readily available, I wouldn’t be tempted to grab fast food or sugary drinks. Instead, I could enjoy organic, homegrown sustenance. Having wholesome ingredients at my fingertips would eliminate the need for convenience meals.
If I could manage to arrive at work punctually and work without distractions, I wouldn’t feel rushed or incomplete, leaving colleagues behind with unfinished tasks. I could truly disconnect during breaks and enjoy a restful weekend, a much-needed Sabbath.
If I could only tidy up my home, it would be organized; my clothes would be put away, and I could easily find what I need. Bills would be settled promptly, laundry done regularly, and I wouldn’t have to worry about my cat snacking on the butter or kittens playing with discarded wrappers.
If I could carve out time for exercise—perhaps getting up earlier for some stretching or yoga—I would feel more relaxed and flexible. A regular fitness routine would help alleviate daily headaches and ease the tension I carry, preventing the stress-induced grinding of my teeth at night.
If I could remember to take my vitamins, it wouldn’t matter if I skipped a glass of milk or didn’t consume all my vegetables. I genuinely desire to eat a variety of fruits, vegetables, and whole grains. I dream of indulging in fresh sushi, perfectly grilled chicken, vibrant salads, and juicy tropical fruits. However, I often find myself lacking the time to prepare these meals. Am I just making excuses?
Time feels elusive—like sand slipping through my fingers.
If I could just straighten my posture, I worry about becoming a hunchback in my later years. If I could refrain from chewing on the skin around my nails, it would be a small victory. If I could devote more time to my hair, I would feel more confident. Proper skincare at night would leave my hands softer, and regular flossing would brighten my smile. If I only remembered to apply that fabulous red lipstick, I could feel more attractive—though it often gets lost at the bottom of my purse among receipts, loose change, and forgotten to-do lists.
Life can feel overwhelming. How does one find a spiritual balance amid this chaos?
Which of these responsibilities can I let slide? Arriving on time? Maintaining my appearance? Prioritizing my health? Ensuring that everyone else stays on track, even at the expense of my own punctuality?
If I could design the ideal schedule, perhaps I could tend to my houseplants, bake homemade bread, write my novels, and have those spontaneous moments of connection with my husband, reminding him of my love despite the exhaustion. I could navigate the unique challenges of each child without feeling like a martyr, expressing my feelings without being perceived as complaining.
I am fatigued and yearning for it all. Things get neglected; my home is cluttered. I haven’t made jam or picked fresh blackberries. Since returning to work, I’ve gained weight from being sedentary for long hours. My houseplants have become lifeless sticks. I find myself apologizing frequently, yet I know most people aren’t overly concerned. Is it me who is setting these expectations?
What if my struggles are all in my head? Or maybe they aren’t? What is truly possible?
As I strive for harmony—with my husband, my body, my spirit, and my relationship with God—can I also include balance? Is it possible to find a schedule that accommodates all my needs? And if not, which of these “must-dos” can I afford to release?
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Summary
This article explores the challenges of managing daily life while striving for spiritual and personal fulfillment. It reflects on the difficulty of balancing work, home, health, and relationships in a chaotic world and poses the question of what responsibilities can be relinquished to achieve a sense of peace and well-being.