Updated: Dec. 20, 2015
Originally Published: May 12, 2015
When I was younger, I often heard my parents say, “It’s always something.” I nodded along, pretending to grasp the meaning, while my life was a whirlwind of deadlines and college chaos. I was consumed with term papers and juggling friendships with classmates scattered across the nation. Meanwhile, my parents were facing tough times with a failing business and caring for my grandparents.
One day, I looked up from my laptop to find my mother in the doorway, looking worn and weary. She shared that my grandmother was in the hospital and that they were postponing a much-needed business trip to be by her side. I offered a half-hearted response, thinking I understood her struggle. To me, my “somethings” were trivial—finding parking at the university or navigating a string of failed relationships, while my mother was bravely managing a household in crisis.
Back in 2002, I stood in six weddings, convinced that I’d never find my soulmate and would end up alone, surrounded by a herd of cats—my final “something.” These worries kept me up at night, while my mom was drowning under the weight of family responsibilities.
It wasn’t that I was particularly self-absorbed for a 22-year-old; it’s just that she was always there for me, no matter the circumstances. I eventually got married and had kids, and my mom was right there through it all. I remember her rushing into the delivery room, my dad trailing behind, probably fearing he’d witness something he didn’t want to see. Relief washed over her when she realized they made it in time for the birth of their first grandchild, despite the truck’s check engine light being on. “It’s always something,” she said, and I realized she was still my rock.
Fast forward to today, and I find myself pondering how to care for three little ones under six while my mother’s health declines. I feel unprepared, gasping for breath, with no map or compass to guide me. One afternoon, my mom called with news from her cardiologist just as my eldest returned from school. I strained to hear her voice over the ruckus of my kids. “Hang on a sec,” I said, covering the phone, yelling for the kids to step out of the kitchen, and quickly turning on the TV to grab a moment of peace.
Tears threatened as I listened to her tired voice. The kids were rummaging through the pantry, and I grabbed a bag of Goldfish crackers, which they dove into while the baby munched on the crumbs. I had so many questions, so much more to say, but my youngest was crying. “It’s always something,” I found myself saying. “I’ll call you tomorrow.”
And now, I truly understand.
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In summary, life is a series of challenges and surprises, often described as “something.” From navigating personal anxieties to supporting loved ones through health crises, it’s a constant reminder that we’re all juggling our own somethings, often while trying to be there for others.