Updated: July 31, 2023
Originally Published: April 24, 2015
Since childhood, I’ve battled anxiety. As a kid, I found myself spiraling into obsessive thoughts about school, friendships, and the occasional parental scolding. Fast forward to my teenage years, and I developed phobias—fear of flying, claustrophobia, and a looming dread of mass shootings. Witnessing 9/11 unfold in New York City left me with lingering symptoms of PTSD. Thankfully, I eventually found a therapist who helped me navigate my panic attacks with practical strategies.
Despite the array of cognitive behavioral therapy, meditation, and exercise, anxiety still lurks in the shadows, ready to pounce. However, I’ve come to embrace my anxiety disorder as a part of my identity, recognizing that it runs in my family. More importantly, I’ve discovered that entwined with my anxiety is an undeniable energy that makes me, well, awesome.
Sure, when I’m locked in the bathroom, heart racing as if I’m about to explode, “awesome” is not the word that springs to mind. Yet, I’ve come to see that many of my best attributes are intertwined with my anxious tendencies. Here’s how:
1. Imagination Unleashed
My imagination is a double-edged sword. It’s the same creativity that can convince me the bus I’m on is a ticking time bomb. But it’s also what fuels my passion for writing and poetry. It allows me to whip up scrumptious meals from random fridge leftovers and transform mundane errands into exhilarating jungle safaris with my kids. I wouldn’t trade that imagination for anything.
2. Unyielding Ambition
Let’s face it—I’m a perfectionist (okay, maybe more than a little). When things don’t go according to plan, anxiety may creep in, but it also drives me to be incredibly dedicated. I tackle every task with meticulous attention, ensuring I deliver my best work. Sure, my perfectionism can be a bit much for others at times, but I take pride in getting things done right.
3. Emotional Depth
I’ve always resonated with “The Princess and the Pea,” because I feel things deeply—my own emotions and those of others. While this can lead to being overstimulated and anxious, it also makes me empathetic. I’m in tune with my feelings and unafraid to express them, which makes for meaningful connections with others.
4. Concern for Humanity
My empathy extends beyond my immediate circle to include strangers I encounter. I often find myself worrying about the less fortunate—those who are hungry or without homes. While losing sleep over every issue isn’t ideal, it illustrates my passion for social causes and my desire to make a positive impact. If you want to explore more about these topics, check out this excellent resource on pregnancy and home insemination.
5. Courageous Every Day
Some days, anxiety can be overwhelming, making it a challenge to leave the house. But I push through, caring for my kids, working, and navigating life even when I feel like I’m on the verge of collapse. I’ve shifted my mindset to recognize my resilience—showing up each day despite my anxiety is something to celebrate.
While I wouldn’t wish anxiety on anyone, I sometimes ponder what life would be like without it. Would I lose the unique gifts that accompany it? I think not. As tough as it is, if my anxiety contributes to my individuality, I’m willing to embrace it.
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Summary:
In this article, Lisa Thompson reflects on her lifelong struggle with anxiety and how it, surprisingly, contributes to her unique strengths. From creativity and ambition to deep empathy and courage, she embraces the complexity of her anxiety disorder, understanding that it shapes who she is.