Dear sweet firstborn,
I owe you a heartfelt apology. First things first—I’m truly sorry for obsessing over your sleep schedule. Those early years were filled with my frantic attempts to coax you into nap time, and let’s just say, some of my finest parenting moments involved yelling, crying, and even the occasional dramatic exit while you were left sobbing. I thought you absolutely needed your beauty sleep, but what you really needed was a calm mom, not a sleep-deprived lunatic. For that, I’m sincerely sorry.
I also regret that you spent so much time surrounded by grown-ups. Being an only child myself and having family so far away meant you were often the star of the adult show. And while I appreciate the responsible firstborn vibe you’ve got going on, I sometimes worry that I may have stifled your playful side. Every world needs its serious leaders, but I hope you still get to enjoy a good dose of childhood silliness.
Food Regrets
Let’s chat about food for a minute. I’m sorry for the bland baby food diet I put you through. Homemade or not, your little brother dove straight into our meals with zest, while you were stuck with unseasoned veggies like sweet potatoes and peas for ages. I hope one day you’ll conquer your hesitation towards spices and embrace your inner culinary adventurer.
And then there were the countless baby activities I dragged you to before you could even sit up. Honestly, I was just craving adult interaction, and you were my perfect excuse to get out of the house.
Discipline and Learning
When it comes to discipline, oh boy, we were a bit too eager with the rules. We yelled, we spanked, and time-outs were handed out like candy. Your dad and I were rookies in this parenting game, trying to figure out which battles were worth fighting and which were just silly. You were the one who bore the brunt of our learning curve, and for that, I’m truly sorry.
You still bear the weight of our early mistakes, especially as we tackle homework, curfews, and college applications together. I’ve loosened my grip on the “perfect” mom illusion, yet there’s still a part of me that feels I owe it to you to get everything right. You’ve given me the most incredible gift—making me a mom. In every way, you are my baby.
I realize this is a lot for one child to carry, and I’m sorry for that. Thank goodness you have siblings to share the load!
With love always,
Mom
Resources for Your Journey
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Conclusion
In summary, parenting is a journey filled with ups and downs, especially for firstborns who often bear the weight of their parents’ learning experiences. It’s important to acknowledge mistakes, embrace spontaneity, and make room for laughter and love along the way.