Beep, beep, beep! My little one rolled out of bed, his superhero pajamas a bit too big for his sleepy frame. “Breakfast!” he cheered, rubbing his eyes, his tousled blond curls bouncing as he looked at the microwave. He settled at the table with his instant oatmeal, while I juggled my infant daughter on my hip, scribbling my to-do list on a notepad.
Meanwhile, my husband made his usual frantic search for his briefcase—a magical item that always seemed to vanish right before he needed it. After quick kisses and frantic goodbyes, he disappeared into the world of adults, leaving my pajama-clad crew waving him off.
A close-up shot would show a scene right out of a 1950s sitcom (minus the microwave meal). But zoom out, and the truth was evident: a mother trying to maintain the facade of domestic bliss, while yesterday’s dishes overflowed in the sink and the laundry pile looked like a mini Mount Everest.
Choosing to stay home with my kids was not part of the plan, but life has a funny way of taking us off course. I stepped away from my career, feeling a mix of happiness in my role as “Mommy” and nagging feelings of inadequacy, daydreaming about my old job.
My biggest anxiety? I feared that being a stay-at-home mom might set a poor example for my kids. Would my daughters understand the value of education and ambition when their primary role model was folding laundry? Would my sons learn respect and equality while witnessing their mom act as the family’s personal assistant? I worried they would grow up with outdated ideas about gender roles.
After breakfast, my son finished his oatmeal, and off we went to the play gym, his excitement palpable. As we drove, I observed the other moms in cars, wondering if they held more significant roles than I did. Perhaps the woman in the blue sedan was running a successful business from home, or the lady in the SUV was on her way to an important meeting. My thoughts spiraled into “what if” scenarios.
He bolted through the play gym doors, brimming with enthusiasm. “Where’s Connor?” he asked. “He’s not here today because his mommy is at work,” I replied. His tiny face scrunched in confusion. “Huh? Mommies don’t work. Daddies go to work, and mommies stay home and cook breakfast.” Ouch. It felt like a punch to the gut. My self-worth plummeted, and I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was perpetuating a harmful stereotype.
Determined to show my kids that I mattered, I took on freelance projects, explaining my work’s importance. I reminded them each time I sat at the computer that I was working just like Dad. But they seemed indifferent, and I found myself preaching feminism to uninterested ears.
Often, I felt torn. Telling them that women should pursue careers while I baked cookies felt hypocritical. No matter how passionately I spoke, my reality was a constant “do as I say, not as I do.”
Years passed since that fateful day at the play gym. My “crew” had grown from a toddler and infant to a teenager, a tween, and a pre-tween. They may ignore much of what I say, but small signs showed that my lessons had made an impact.
When Career Day arrived, I expected my daughter to choose a princess costume. Instead, she asked for doctor’s scrubs, declaring her wish to dress as a surgeon. I beamed with pride. The ultimate assurance came when my son, now a teenager, interrupted one of my empowerment lectures with an eye roll. “I get it, I get it. You could work anywhere you want to, Mom. We know.”
In that moment, I felt a wave of relief wash over me. I realized I could stop worrying that my stay-at-home example would warp their views on gender roles. Maybe my efforts were bearing fruit, or perhaps I just needed to recognize my own worth. I don’t think my kids ever doubted me.
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In summary, I learned to embrace my role as a stay-at-home mom without fearing how my kids perceive me. Through ups and downs, I found that my example mattered more than I realized, and my children are absorbing lessons that extend beyond the confines of traditional gender roles.