Wow, you’re already in fourth grade! It feels like just yesterday you were this tiny bundle of giggles and curiosity. Now, you’re all arms and legs, blissfully independent and impressively self-sufficient. Honestly, your dad and I should have seen this coming. After all, you’ve been striding off to school solo since you were six! And let’s not forget how you’ve taken on the role of big sister with such grace—sometimes, I think you’re the parent there!
Raising you has been nothing short of a revelation. Sure, there are moments when I’m overwhelmed by the challenges, but mostly, I’m just in awe of the incredible person you’re becoming. I often find myself reflecting on how much joy you’ve brought into my life, teaching me the true essence of love, kindness, and the beauty of simply being together. It’s those simple moments—just you, me, and your dad—that truly matter.
I used to write to you frequently, sharing snippets of our lives and your growth, but life got busy. As we’ve started to navigate this journey side by side, I’ve realized how much I miss those times. I feel a stronger connection to you when I take the time to reflect on your joys, your struggles, and all the little wonders that make you, well, you.
Lately, though, I’ve noticed a shift. As you grow, I sometimes find myself pulling away, not because I want to, but because it’s a natural part of this journey. It’s scary to see you becoming more independent, and I catch myself trying to protect my heart from the inevitable changes. But we’re all human, right? We stumble and fumble through our relationships, bringing our own histories and baggage along for the ride.
You were the first to teach me what it means to love unconditionally. Back when you were little, everything was so much simpler. Now, as you’re on the brink of your tween years, the dynamic has shifted. While you’re reveling in life, I sometimes find myself bogged down by worries. You cartwheel through life, while I overthink everything. Yet, I still find moments to pause and appreciate the amazing girl you are.
I try to remember to keep my heart open to you, even when it feels like life is pulling us apart. I’ve realized that with your growing independence, I’ve also gained more time for myself, which is both a blessing and a challenge. I occasionally choose solitude, but I never want that to mean I’m choosing distance from you.
This space between us is a double-edged sword—it gives me room to breathe, but it also breaks my heart. I don’t want to close that gap, but I want to acknowledge it and find ways to connect more deeply. I want to be there for you—open, available, and present. You’ve been such a gift in my life, and I hope you know that. Even when I pull away, your love remains a constant in my life.
So, as we navigate this journey together, let’s embrace the moments we have. Today, we’re heading out for a little grocery run, just the two of us. You’ll get your favorite caramel steamer, and I’ll have my Americano. Let’s relish the chaos of October, filled with change and growth. Let’s keep fostering connection and being honest with each other throughout this process.
In the end, my sweet girl, we’ll continue to figure this out together. I’m always here, ready to lean in while you’re figuring out who you are. And while today may seem more ordinary, it’s these moments that truly matter.