I was at the doctor’s office when a nurse, who had five kids and a bunch of grandkids, told me how quickly time flies. “I know you hear this all the time, but it’s true,” she said.
And honestly, I do hear it often, and it resonates. It feels like just yesterday when I was standing over the crib, a brand-new dad at 24 years old. It was the first night home with my son, Leo, who seemed so tiny, swaddled up and peacefully sleeping. I was overwhelmed, anxious about the fatherhood journey ahead of me—an adventure I knew little about. But there was no turning back. It felt like I was no longer in control, as if life was steering me toward an unknown destination: fatherhood.
From that moment, my life took a drastic turn—and it continues to evolve.
Embracing Change in Parenting
Parenting is inherently about change. With Leo, it kicked off with sleepless nights, which was my first major trial as a father. Now, at 9 years old, our challenges have shifted to navigating homework and hygiene. In between, there were countless other hurdles.
The reality of parenting is that I often find myself anticipating the next developmental stage, believing it will solve the current struggles I face. For example, my 2-year-old daughter, Mia, fights bedtime like it’s an Olympic sport, often waking up in the middle of the night and rising for the day at 5 a.m. I frequently ponder how tired I am at work, bleary-eyed, and I know my partner feels the same as she juggles her studies. We often dream of the day when Mia will sleep through the night like her older siblings.
Yet, we seldom acknowledge how snuggly Mia is compared to the others. She cracks me up with her adorable remarks, and her enthusiasm when I come home is infectious. When I leave, she often peeks through the pet door to wave goodbye—cutest thing ever!
Growing Up Too Fast
In contrast, my oldest son, Max, has become much more independent. Any attempt to hug him in the school parking lot is met with a look that says, “Please don’t embarrass me.” When I return home from work, he immediately asks for the iPad without even a greeting. He’s a typical 9-year-old, not a bad kid, just growing up.
To be honest, I miss the days when Max was as snuggly as Mia. I miss the innocent kisses that could fix everything. Now, he’s much more complex, and I can’t help but look forward to the day he’ll start combing his hair without a fuss or understanding the value of homework.
What Am I Sacrificing?
But what am I sacrificing by always wishing for the next phase?
What I mean to say is that I often look ahead with hope, thinking the next stage will remedy my current frustrations. However, each new phase brings its own set of challenges and a sense of loss for what once was. Why don’t I just pause and savor the joys of the present? The snuggles, the laughter, the moments when they still seek my advice and prefer my company to that of their friends. It’s so easy to focus on the sleepless nights instead of appreciating the delightful giggles of my 2-year-old.
Reflecting back, I remember how exhausted I was when Leo didn’t sleep as a baby. I was juggling college and a part-time job, often dozing off in random places. I felt overwhelmed, but those late-night moments with Leo were precious opportunities to bond, to connect with him in a way I didn’t fully grasp at the time. Now, I see the value in those experiences.
That’s what the nurse meant when she said, “It goes by too fast.” Parenting is filled with stress and chaos, and when things finally calm down, there’s a pang of nostalgia for the earlier days. I should have taken time to appreciate those moments instead of rushing to the next phase, assuming it would be easier.
Embracing the Present
So tonight, when I’m up with Mia, I’m going to embrace it. I’ll look at her soft, growing hair and treasure the innocence she radiates. I’ll relish the feel of her little body nestled against me and enjoy this moment in her development instead of wishing for what’s next.
Children grow up all too quickly, and it really does happen in the blink of an eye.
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In summary, it’s essential to appreciate the present moment in parenting rather than always yearning for what’s next. Each stage comes with its unique joys and challenges, and it’s crucial to savor the snuggles, laughter, and connections we have with our children right now.