At some point in every marriage, it’s common to experience a rough patch—a period filled with quiet discontent or unpredictable moments of growth. This phase is sometimes referred to as the “Seven Year Itch.” For me, it felt jagged and uncertain, culminating in a long and painful silence with my husband. Eventually, that silence shattered with the mention of “divorce.”
To be honest, a sense of relief washed over me when we began discussing ending our marriage. It forced us to confront the silence and communicate again. Yet, as I contemplated the ins and outs of divorce—dreading the potential for custody battles and feeling heartbroken over dividing our shared memories—I found myself wondering if it might be possible to stay married for the sake of our kids.
Before I could ponder that heavily loaded question, a flurry of other thoughts began bubbling to the surface—thoughts that felt too raw and uncomfortable to voice. I often wonder if other women in similar situations feel this way.
Questions of Intimacy and Affection
Would we choose celibacy? If so, could I genuinely give up intimacy for a decade or more while raising our children together? I’m not devoid of desires; I have needs for both physical and emotional affection. It feels selfish to want those things, doesn’t it?
Could we consider an open marriage—one where we don’t share details but still fulfill our needs for affection? While this arrangement seems tempting in moments of loneliness, I doubt I could handle the thought of my husband being with someone else. The truth is, even if we’re not communicating, I can’t imagine being with anyone but him.
The Impact on Our Children
If I decide to stay married for the kids, what message does that send to them? Would my actions warp their understanding of gender roles? Though my husband and I may not see eye to eye on our marriage, we do share common ground when it comes to raising our children. We want to teach them that women are equal to men. If we remain married purely for their sake, could it appear to them that wives are meant to be submissive?
I can endure heartache, and I can shield my children from my pain by managing how I respond to the realities of my marriage. Like any devoted parent, I’m prepared to put my own needs aside for my kids, but is that the right approach? Should we stay together, or is divorce the better route? I don’t have all the answers, but I constantly turn these questions over in my mind and heart.
The Resilience of Women
Women are resilient and capable of enduring tremendous pain. I understand that. While I’m willing to sacrifice my happiness for my children, I can’t shake the concern that I might be making the wrong choice. What consequences might arise from this decision?
Ultimately, I love my family, including my husband. Even if we can’t find a way to make our marriage work, there was a time when we thrived together, and for that, I’m willing to be patient until the right choice reveals itself to me.
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Summary
Navigating the complexities of marriage, especially for the sake of children, can be challenging. The struggle between personal happiness and parental responsibilities raises many questions. It’s essential to consider the implications of staying together versus separating, both for oneself and for the children involved.