Here are five unexpected feelings I experienced as a mom:
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The Anxiety
I still remember the day we brought our newborn home. The sky was a brilliant blue, and the trees were lush green. Yet, I couldn’t help but notice the fumes from the idling car beside us. The realization that I was responsible for the well-being of such a fragile little being weighed heavily on me. In a world that felt increasingly threatening, even the tiniest concerns loomed large. Each news story about a child’s illness or loss hit home, evoking a powerful emotional response. It’s not just reading a headline; it’s feeling the weight of that connection and the potential loss. I was also blindsided by everyday fears—concerns about friendships, parenting styles, and whether I was truly “good enough” as a mother. The constant self-doubt about my decisions was something I never anticipated. -
The Overwhelming Fatigue
Sure, I was prepared for the rigors of pregnancy and childbirth, but I underestimated the relentless demands of being a mother. One morning, just weeks after my first daughter was born, I realized that sleeping in would be a distant memory. The constant cycle of lifting, cleaning, and chasing after little ones took a toll on my body. During those sleepless nights, I often found myself walking back and forth with a crying baby, aching all over. If only I could fit in a yoga class! -
The Sense of Defeat
I’ve always prided myself on my ability to overcome challenges. But parenting is a never-ending task list. The chaos of messes, sibling arguments, and household chores can be overwhelming. Some days, it feels impossible to keep up, and the weight of failure can be crushing. I didn’t realize how often I would face days when nothing seemed to go right, leaving me with no choice but to rise again the next day and try anew. -
The Deep Love
I knew I would love my children, but the intensity of that love was beyond my wildest dreams. Those quiet moments of nursing and witnessing their first steps filled me with a joy I had never experienced. At every stage, I found myself marveling at their beauty and feeling a love so profound that I would put their needs above my own without hesitation. -
The Desire for More
When my partner and I decided to start a family, we never discussed how many kids we wanted. If you’d told my 27-year-old self that I would eventually have six children, I would have been taken aback. Yet, nurturing my kids has also helped me grow and become stronger. I’ve learned patience, endurance, and introspection. My children have pushed me to confront qualities I might have otherwise ignored, and for that, I am grateful.
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Summary
Motherhood brings a plethora of unexpected emotions, from overwhelming love to anxiety and fatigue. Each child not only changes your life but also offers opportunities for personal growth and self-reflection. Embracing these feelings can make the journey of motherhood a profoundly rewarding experience.