Something incredible just happened. My partner, Alex, and I were relaxing on the couch together—he was browsing the internet (do people still say that?) while I was engrossed in a book. Our kids were bouncing around, using the couch frame as a trampoline with cushions scattered everywhere. Suddenly, our youngest flopped onto a big pillow, breathing heavily, and whimpered, “I’m thirsty.”
I heard him but didn’t really register what he said until I noticed Alex get up and head to the kitchen. In that moment, I realized two things: 1) my son truly needed some water, and 2) Alex was going to get it.
I couldn’t decide who impressed me more—Alex for his initiative or myself for simply tuning in. I’m leaning towards myself, yet I recognize I wouldn’t be here without his guidance. I used to feel frustrated watching him play his guitar in his pajamas while I played the role of the exhausted caregiver. I often wondered how he could find the time to read while I was wrestling with our toddlers or hunting down toys. He would engage in games with strangers on his phone while I scrambled to help our kids. My feelings of amazement turned into bitterness, much like a child throwing a tantrum over unfairness.
I’d argue with Alex, calling him selfish and inconsiderate. He’d calmly respond, “You can’t be upset with me for not having boundaries. You could enjoy yourself too if you let go a bit. Just say ‘no’ to the kids sometimes, relax, and let’s order in. Simplify your life and stop blaming me for your choices.” He had a point, and it made me think, “Maybe he’s right…”
It hasn’t been an easy journey, but by observing Alex, I’ve learned to take it easy and let myself enjoy life more. Now, I can laugh out loud while reading, even if the kids are playing nearby. Interestingly, my family appreciates this new side of me (and I love them even more for it).
Alex has always been a fantastic dad. Just today, he played a matching game and engaged in a couple of sword fights with our kids. He even let our youngest cuddle up to him—apparently, he’s on the lookout for new sources of comfort since mine are no longer available! But Alex is also skilled at carving out time for his interests. Can you believe I used to resent him for that? Instead of complaining, I’ve started learning from him. I enjoy my kids, but I also deserve some happiness. Instead of only writing during their naps, I now find moments to create while they play outside. A little benign neglect never hurt anyone.
Once again, Alex went to the kitchen, and this time he asked, “Do you want some water?” I was taken aback. Clearly, doing less has allowed me to appreciate more. I’m beginning to see the bigger picture.
I used to find Alex annoying—until I started to emulate him. Now I’ve picked up some of his best habits, like sneaking in a few minutes of downtime even when I’ve got a million things to do. Sometimes, I even pretend I’m busy in the bathroom just to enjoy a little peace and quiet!
Alex isn’t selfish; he’s brilliant and a true inspiration.
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Summary
The author reflects on how her perspective of her partner changed from viewing him as selfish to understanding his approach to life and parenting. By learning to take time for herself and enjoy life, she finds greater happiness and balance, improving her family dynamics.