In the journey of egg donation, numerous factors come into play: physical characteristics, education, interests—each profile I reviewed felt reminiscent of my online dating experiences. This time, however, I wasn’t searching for a romantic partner but rather an anonymous egg donor to assist in my aspirations of becoming a parent.
My path began with love, followed by marriage, and subsequently, a series of medical evaluations that revealed a stark reality: despite being in my twenties, I could not use my own eggs to conceive. Fortunately, my uterus remained healthy, allowing me to consider alternatives such as using my husband’s sperm along with an egg donor instead of pursuing adoption.
Once my husband and I made the significant decision to invest our savings into the egg donation process, I believed the hardest part was behind us. However, we soon faced the daunting task of selecting the woman who would serve as a genetic substitute. Much like the infamous binders full of women, my infertility clinic provided a vast array of profiles from potential donors. Having met my husband shortly after joining an online dating platform, I assumed selecting a donor would be straightforward. Yet, the gravity of choosing someone to contribute to my child’s DNA was far more complex than simply finding a Netflix companion.
The pressure to make the right choice was immense. Our social worker suggested that many couples prefer donors who resemble the intended mother to minimize potential questions about the child’s origins. While I understood this inclination, I questioned whether I wanted to pass my insecurities, such as my prominent nose, onto a future daughter. Perhaps selecting a donor with ideal features—like perfect teeth and height—might not result in a mini-me, but it could provide my children with opportunities in athletics or modeling, or at least ensure they had dates for prom.
Some donors had already undergone successful donation cycles, which increased the likelihood of viable eggs for me. However, this also meant my future children might have half-siblings they would never meet. To reduce the possibility of half-sibling encounters, we quickly eliminated those donors from our list.
My husband faced a unique challenge during this process. For six years, he had diplomatically suggested I was the only woman he found appealing, yet here I was, presenting him with photos of young women and asking for his candid opinions on their attractiveness. Despite his honesty, it stung to hear he had a preference for blondes over my naturally dark hair.
After several hours of reviewing potential donors, we felt we had narrowed down our options sufficiently and decided to take a night to reflect on our choice. However, while watching a reality TV show, I began to feel anxious. I wondered what lengths some of these potential donors might go to in order to secure the $8,000 compensation for a successful cycle. I realized that my only basis for judgment was a brief medical history, a list of hobbies, and a single black-and-white photo. How could I truly know if donor No. 437 was genuinely trilingual or if No. 289 had really participated in the Junior Olympics volleyball team?
Ultimately, we chose the donor whose interests resonated with mine, hoping that this connection would translate into a shared personality for our future child. Ironically, I often receive comments from others about how much my children resemble me, despite their lack of knowledge about the reality of their genetic origins.
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In summary, choosing an egg donor is a complex and emotional process, requiring careful consideration of many factors. While it may evoke memories of dating, the stakes are much higher when selecting someone to contribute to your child’s genetic makeup.