Reflecting on my life seven years ago, I often share a critical lesson with friends who are considering starting families later in life: don’t rush into leaving your job after having a baby. My own choice to step away was far too impulsive.
When my first child arrived, I was thriving in my career at a publishing company. I adored my job, surrounded by colleagues who supported me, and my role became increasingly engaging. The years prior to motherhood were professionally fulfilling, and when my company was acquired, my opportunities expanded. I envisioned a long career with them, never dreaming that motherhood would alter that path so drastically.
My journey into parenthood was swift; I got married and, within a year, found myself expecting at 32. Life changed rapidly—we moved from the bustling streets of NYC to the suburbs, and my baby arrived shortly after. I took a few months off to bond, but during my maternity leave, my office relocated far from our new home. Suddenly, I was faced with a daunting commute, the challenges of breastfeeding at work, and the emotional turmoil of balancing motherhood and career, all while feeling like I was losing time with my child.
The situation escalated when I returned to work, just as a blackout hit the tri-state area. Stuck in the city, I spent a sleepless night pumping milk for my three-month-old at home, cared for by a babysitter who struggled to manage without proper supplies. This traumatic experience made me realize that my time in the workforce felt increasingly limited.
Initially, my managers offered a flexible schedule, allowing me to work three days in the office and two from home. While this arrangement helped, I constantly battled the fear of missing out on my daughter’s milestones. She began to walk and call the babysitter “mommy,” and I was missing precious moments. Each attempt to enjoy an evening in the park was often interrupted by work calls, leaving me exhausted and sick. My performance suffered as I juggled pumping sessions and meetings, and when the time came to resign, it felt almost inevitable.
In the months that followed, I reluctantly transitioned to part-time work with my former company, which provided a much-needed connection to my previous life. I missed my coworkers and the work I was passionate about. Soon after, I was pregnant again, and my life became a whirlwind of two young children just 19 months apart. The chaos made me realize that staying home full-time wasn’t my calling, and I struggled with feelings of isolation and depression.
A trip to England opened my eyes to women successfully managing part-time careers, reigniting my determination to find balance. With a helpful contact from my previous job, I secured a part-time position in publishing, which eventually led to a consulting career. However, I soon found that consulting lacks stability, and I often feel unqualified for the roles I truly desire.
While I cherish the time I’ve spent with my children, attending their ballet recitals and school events, I can’t help but wonder about the path not taken. What if I had found a different childcare solution? What if I had given my career more time? Ultimately, I know my children would have thrived either way.
Here’s a truth I’ve come to accept: I’ve never been fond of playgrounds or the social pressures of school drop-off. I often feel like a bad mom when I compare myself to those who bake cookies with their kids or host playdates. I wasn’t meant to be a stay-at-home mother, a realization I wish I’d come to before making that drastic decision.
I don’t believe it’s easy to juggle full-time work and parenting; it’s a tough balancing act. Personally, I find fulfillment in my career, earning my own income, and sharing childcare responsibilities. My kids often thrive with other caregivers who bring fresh energy into their lives. In essence, I’ve learned that stepping away from them for a bit allows me to be a better mother.
If you’re a new mom contemplating leaving your full-time job, I urge you to consider your options carefully. If a part-time role with comparable responsibilities is available, it might be worth exploring. Life balance is vital—do what feels right for you. But if you love your job, resist the urge to leave immediately. The longer you stay, the more likely your employer will respect your need for balance, making it easier to navigate family obligations.
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In summary, my journey has taught me invaluable lessons about the challenges of parenting and the importance of finding the right balance between work and family. Embrace your choices, and remember that every family’s path is unique.
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