I once shared in your carefree life, free from the demands of parenthood. I remember the spontaneity, the freedom to pursue activities at a whim, and the absence of a strict schedule. While I sometimes long for those days, I also feel a sense of envy towards you, as you still embrace that lifestyle. Since I became a mother, our relationship has inevitably evolved, and I want to share a few thoughts with you.
Understanding My Current Busyness
Firstly, please understand that my current busyness is temporary. As my child grows, the demands on my time will shift, enabling me to socialize more frequently. I may not return to my former routine, but I genuinely intend to reconnect and spend quality time with you.
My Overwhelming Fatigue
Secondly, my fatigue is overwhelming. There are moments when I forget what you’ve told me, and I feel ashamed about it. Your words and presence matter greatly to me, even if I struggle to remember them right now. I have been running on little sleep, often recalling my eyelids as “eye covers” due to exhaustion. I assure you that once I catch up on rest, I will be more present, attentive, and engaged in our conversations.
A Desire to Reconnect
I sincerely want to spend time with you. I apologize for regularly declining invitations, like our beloved wing nights or spontaneous trips to the mall. My role as a single mother places immense pressure on me, and I often feel guilty about leaving my baby with my parents. However, every time I say “yes,” know that it’s a significant decision for me, and I truly appreciate your understanding.
Craving Your Companionship
Please continue to invite me out. I crave your companionship and want to feel included, even if my responses are limited. It brings me joy to remember that I am still loved and wanted in your lives, and I promise to surprise us both by accepting invitations every now and then.
Missing Our Shared Experiences
I deeply miss our shared experiences—those late-night drives, gym sessions, indulgent wine evenings, and spontaneous road trips filled with laughter. I cherish the moments we spent together, and your support during my pregnancy was invaluable. You stood by me through mood swings, celebrated ice cream outings, and reassured me when I felt less than beautiful. Your kindness has left a lasting impression.
Support During Tough Days
On the tough days, when I felt overwhelmed, you were my steady support. You listened to my fears and doubts, even when solutions were elusive. Your compassion during my vulnerable moments meant the world to me.
To My Cherished Friends
To my cherished friends, I want you to know I hold you in high regard and love you dearly. Life has become more complex, but you are still among my closest friends. And to my friends who experienced motherhood before me: your guidance has been instrumental in my journey. I am grateful for your unwavering support.
Looking Forward
I miss you all tremendously and look forward to a time when I can fully engage with you, free from the daily challenges of motherhood. Until then, I promise that when I’m not navigating the demands of parenting, I will treat you all to a well-deserved round of wine.
Warmly,
Lila
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Summary
This heartfelt letter expresses the feelings of a mother reflecting on her previous carefree lifestyle and the changes that come with motherhood. She acknowledges the challenges of balancing friendships while parenting, her desire to stay connected, and her appreciation for the support she received during her journey into motherhood.