Updated: August 20, 2015
Originally Published: September 30, 2014
As I anticipated the birth of my first child, I was determined to experience a natural childbirth. My partner and I enrolled in hypnobirthing classes, consulted midwives, and absorbed every documentary on the subject. I was resolute: no early cord cutting, no pitocin, no epidurals, and certainly no painkillers. I was empowered and ready for the challenge!
However, my plans took a dramatic turn when my son experienced distress due to a bowel movement in the womb, leading to an emergency C-section. While many women opt for surgical deliveries, I was unprepared for the emotional toll it would take on me. I hadn’t anticipated the reality of recovering from major surgery or the profound feelings of disappointment that followed my birth experience.
In the days after my son’s arrival, I received a flood of congratulatory messages. Friends without children offered kind remarks like, “Congratulations!” and “Great job, Mom!” Meanwhile, those with children echoed sentiments of awe, saying things like, “Did you ever think you could love something so much?” and “You’ll never believe the depth of love you’re experiencing!”
Confusion washed over me. Why wasn’t I feeling those emotions? Was there something wrong with me? Staring into my son’s eyes, I felt like an unfamiliar caretaker to this tiny being who seemed indifferent to my existence. I was overwhelmed with the responsibility of ensuring his happiness, and to top it off, my body was changing in ways I hadn’t prepared for. I found myself crying—often.
Weeks passed, and gradually, I emerged from the fog of postpartum depression. When I spoke to other mothers, I discovered that many had similar feelings of doubt and overwhelm after childbirth. This realization was a revelation—I wasn’t alone. It became clear that the narrative surrounding new motherhood often features two extremes: the blissfully happy maternal figure or the struggling new mom. Yet, there is a vast spectrum of experiences that fall in between. It’s crucial to share these truths with expectant mothers.
Pregnancy often brings heightened emotions, and new mothers face a unique set of challenges. It’s essential to approach conversations with honesty about the complexities of motherhood. Expectant mothers should be informed about the emotional rollercoaster that awaits them.
For those preparing for motherhood, I suggest taking time for self-care. Revisit the activities you love before your baby arrives. Whether it’s going to the movies, enjoying dinner with your partner, or indulging in a spa day, these moments will be harder to come by later. Additionally, start preparing your body for breastfeeding, as it can lead to discomfort. Embrace the changes, and understand that it’s normal to feel a mix of joy and fear.
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In summary, the journey into motherhood can be both exhilarating and daunting. It’s essential to allow yourself grace and acknowledge the whirlwind of emotions that may arise. You’ve created a life, and that is no small feat!