“Mommy, why did Daddy leave us?”
As I gaze into her large, glistening brown eyes, my heart aches. Tears threaten to spill over, and she looks at me with a flicker of hope that perhaps this time my response will be different.
“I love you. I’m truly sorry that Daddy made a choice that hurt us when he left, but this is not your fault. He is not a bad person; he just made a poor decision that affected many, and I’m sorry it hurt you. I love you more than any father ever could because my love for you is infinite!”
Those were my comforting words, yet what I longed to express, the thoughts swirling in my mind and filling my heart with such intensity that it felt like it might burst, sounded more like this: “Daddy left because he is selfish. He should have never become a parent in the first place. Every day, I wish he could understand the pain he has caused you and the damage to our family. He’s a terrible excuse for a human being, a waste of potential, and honestly, we are better off without him.”
But what can you say to those innocent, tear-filled eyes staring up at you? How do you respond to a child who shares half of their DNA with someone who consistently brings you heartache and anger?
You reassure her that she is deeply loved. No matter how much resentment you may feel, you refrain from speaking ill of him. You emphasize that the person who contributed to her DNA is not inherently bad, and that she has no evil within her. You acknowledge her pain, letting her know that her feelings are valid and that she deserves to be heard.
You admit that you don’t have all the answers and wish you could make things better, but sometimes you can’t. You encourage her to express her feelings and remind her, time and again, of her incredible worth, reinforcing that her father’s absence is not a reflection of her actions.
You convey the most genuine and powerful truth you possess: that your love for her stretches to the ends of the earth and beyond, and you will dedicate your life to loving her enough to fill the void left by the one who is missing. You assure her that you will never leave, as every moment spent together is a cherished gift.
Though Daddy may have departed, he inadvertently left behind the best part of himself.
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Summary:
Navigating the emotional complexities of a parent leaving can be incredibly challenging for both the parent and the child. It’s crucial to communicate love and support while acknowledging the child’s feelings. Instead of speaking poorly about the absent parent, reinforcing the child’s self-worth and offering reassurance can help foster a secure emotional environment.