As a parent, I have a confession: on most nights, my bed is shared with one (or more) of my children. With four little ones in the house, each capable of waking up in the middle of the night due to sickness, fear, or simply the need for comfort, it’s not uncommon for one or more of them to wander into my room clutching a favorite blanket or a well-loved stuffed animal.
Each time I roll over to check the clock, I feel a familiar pang of regret over the precious sleep I might miss out on. Despite that, I always make room for them. I understand this topic can stir debate, and while I respect that not everyone agrees with co-sleeping, I’ve realized that there’s a profound reason behind my choice.
A Journey Through Anxiety
When I was 16, I struggled with food and sleep. It wasn’t a straightforward journey; it began subtly, with a growing sense of anxiety that ultimately spiraled out of control. Nighttime became a battleground where I tossed and turned, battling thoughts that plagued me. In my moment of need, I sought comfort from my mother, crawling into her bed for solace. That small act of connection, her hand resting gently on my back, brought me an unexpected sense of peace that I desperately needed.
Creating Comfort for My Children
As a parent now, I often reflect on those moments from my childhood. I may not be the perfect mother—my temper can be short, I often rely on boxed meals, and I struggle to keep up with the daily chaos of four kids. But at night, I can offer something that my own mother gave me: the comfort of togetherness. I can create space for my children, resting a hand on them as they drift off to sleep, reassuring them that they are not alone.
I know this phase won’t last forever; their needs will evolve as they grow. Still, for now, I cherish these moments when I can help them feel safe and secure, even if it means sacrificing my own sleep.
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Ultimately, the journey of motherhood is filled with challenges and joys, and in this moment, I choose to embrace the chaos of shared beds and sleepy cuddles, knowing that it’s all a part of this beautiful, messy experience.