Nothing Will Shatter You (Or Rebuild You) Like Motherhood

pregnant heterosexual coupleGet Pregnant Fast

I’m having one of those weeks. Everything seems to be going awry—tasks are left unfinished, unexpected expenses are piling up (like my toddler drenching my work laptop in juice, and also losing a tooth), and our household has been a symphony of coughs and crankiness for over a week now. Nothing catastrophic, but enough to fray my nerves and leave me feeling overwhelmed.

I reached out on social media: “I’m on the struggle bus this week, and it’s only Tuesday.” I made it clear that I wasn’t seeking advice, but rather some camaraderie. I knew I wasn’t alone, and sometimes just knowing that others are navigating the same storm makes the weight of our troubles feel a bit lighter, no matter how trivial they may seem.

I didn’t preface it with “but I love my kids!” because, of course, I do. A tough week, a call for support, or sharing our current struggles doesn’t diminish our love for them. It doesn’t lessen our appreciation. It simply means we’re experiencing a rough patch, and we need to share the load.

Because that’s the reality of motherhood: sometimes, everything hits the fan. It’s a guarantee.

There are moments when the smallest things accumulate, pushing you to the brink, and it feels like you’re teetering on the edge of a breakdown. Sometimes, external factors shake your world, and just when you think you’re managing, your toddler jumps into a mountain of laundry, while you’re trying to dry your juice-soaked laptop with a blow dryer, and your baby clings to your leg, desperately seeking attention, while your oldest announces she’s “not feeling so great.”

And that’s when I slammed down the hair dryer, surveyed the chaotic kitchen, and yelled—at no one in particular, but really at everyone—“I just can’t do this right now!”

The truth? In that moment, I couldn’t do it all. I couldn’t embody the supermom ideal that everyone imagines. Some days I almost reach that level, but that day was not one of them. I couldn’t comfort my crying toddler while nursing my baby, assessing my daughter’s symptoms, and praying for a miracle to revive my laptop.

But I couldn’t call in sick, so I did what any mom would do. I triaged the situation. Because that’s what moms do; we keep moving even when we feel like we’re at our breaking point. Even when we think, “I can’t do this,” we keep going. I picked up the baby and rushed to my toddler after hearing a thud. He was fine, just a bruise and in need of some frozen peas and a hug. Then I settled my oldest into bed with a cold drink and a stack of picture books. I latched the baby, and then, well, I cried—just like a baby.

I was exhausted. So. Done.

Later that evening, as I discussed the next day’s plans with my partner (and my desperate need for a break), we paused when we heard the familiar slap of tiny feet on the hardwood floor. We smiled, knowing our “little nugget”—the baby—would soon be waddling around the corner.

And there he was, arms raised in triumph as he walked toward me. My heart swells as I realize this may be one of the last times I’ll hear those tiny feet pattering down the hall. It’s my favorite sound, and it fills me with love for this incredible little being. The earlier meltdown fades into the background as I scoop him up, and he nestles his small head into my neck.

Ah, motherhood, you break me into pieces, only to put me back together again. Every. Single. Time.

I would gladly deal with a coffee-stained laptop, and I’ll tackle the chaotic days filled with clingy kids needing my attention when I’m already at my limit. Because that’s what we do as mothers. We rise up. We endure. We crumble, and we rebuild. We let our children’s love ignite our passion. We allow that love to rejuvenate us. And when tomorrow comes, we do it all over again.

Because there are those tiny feet coming down the hallway, and duty calls. For more insights and relatable experiences, check out this other blog post. If you’re exploring options for home insemination, this online retailer provides reputable products. Additionally, this resource is excellent for those navigating pregnancy and home insemination.


intracervicalinsemination.org