When I embarked on this parenting adventure, I was initially consumed by the desire to achieve perfection, or at least something close to it. I felt immense pressure to present my child as impeccably groomed, stylishly dressed, and contently silent in public spaces. The fear of being labeled a bad parent was paralyzing.
I vividly recall dining at restaurants with my baby, where my sole focus was on distracting him to prevent any disruptions. A single cry from him felt like a personal failure. When my mother-in-law visited just an hour after lunch and my little one had remnants of food on his face or in his hair, I could practically feel the judgment radiating from her. “You’ve had an hour to clean him up, and this is how he looks? What have you been doing?” Of course, she never uttered those words, but the unspoken words were deafening.
You know that feeling when reading between the lines? It’s similar to sensing judgment from others. It manifests in the unspoken conversations, the fleeting glances, and the hurried cleaning of dishes that you had the audacity to leave in the sink, all while their true thoughts linger just out of earshot.
No one has ever explicitly told me, “You’re a terrible mother.” Yet, the atmosphere can be so thick with tension that it feels like a verbal assault on my parenting abilities.
For the first few years of parenthood, I was caught up in the chaos of laundry, scrubbing faces, and maintaining a spotless home. My free time was consumed with researching how to keep my child calm on an airplane or teaching him sign language. The irony? I didn’t genuinely care about those things; I felt obligated to do them due to the fear of judgment.
Then, one fateful day, it hit me. I had spent the previous week without any time to read, watch a show, or enjoy a walk because I was too busy striving for “perfect parenting.” The most liberating realization was this: I never truly believed I was a bad mother. Not one sideways glance or snide comment from other moms had ever convinced me that I was inadequate. Deep down, I knew I was a loving mother who dedicated everything to my children. I realized that only I had the power to let their comments affect me.
Now, I genuinely don’t care if my children’s faces or clothes are always spotless. They will inevitably get messy again, so why stress about it? I no longer worry about my baby crying on a plane. After all, my baby is a human being just like anyone else, and the annoyance caused by a few cries is no different than the irritation I feel from someone else’s loud snoring. If you can’t handle the noise, feel free to look away. Otherwise, I’ll just smile and wave at you, because I’ve learned to take joy in challenging those who try to judge me.
I’ve also let go of the need for a pristine home. I now enjoy welcoming family and friends, proudly pointing out the dust bunnies that have made themselves at home. “This little guy is Dusty,” I say with a laugh. “I couldn’t bear to toss him out because he’s so lonely! I’m just waiting to see if he finds a family.” Making jokes about it eases the tension, and surprisingly, when others see that their opinions no longer affect me, they tend to stop trying to change me and accept me as I am.
If you haven’t yet reached this enlightening moment in your parenting journey, don’t lose hope! It will come. When it does, you’ll discover the liberating feeling of not caring what others think of your parenting. It’s a fantastic place to be! Initially, it might feel challenging, but just fake it until you make it. Soon enough, you’ll find yourself playfully asking your mother-in-law, “Oh hi! Could you please help with those dishes in the sink? And my kid has food on his face—do you mind helping me out with that? Thanks a ton!” (Evil grin emoji inserted here.)
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In summary, embracing your unique parenting style while disregarding the judgment of others is an empowering shift. It liberates you from unnecessary stress and allows you to enjoy the journey of motherhood.
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